Your not number one here

Here, you are not number one
But perhaps where you started your career
Career as a tough
It is what you don’t want to say you
But you are back in a second
You sleep in the shadows still
And I’m not there
I hear you calling out for me
But you and your black eyes make me not peace
All broken windows will fill you with anxiety
And it is only you who have been there
No one else wants to hear your excuse